

I'm Looking at you Through the Lights
It's 75 and sunny in Seattle, WA. I'm looking out the front door at the white house across the street. The only thing I know about this...
Jul 12, 2023


People, They Don't Really Know You
Guess who? Yep. It's me, Mandeebeth. 8 months, it has been 8 months since I even thought about blogging; which is mostly true except for...
Jan 19, 2023


Saudade
I wrote this two weeks ago, so I guess I'm a little late to the publish button. Regardless, here is my recount of the great chapter close...
May 17, 2022


I Love Her All The Same
I am no longer just emotionally surviving. No longer trying to figure out to get from here to there. I have been washed in clarity and...
Apr 20, 2022


Weh Yuh Deh
Hey. Hi. Hello. Weh Yuh Deh? For me, just livin' life (the MB way). This post is dedicated to an incredible week I experienced and some...
Apr 18, 2022


Wind Horse & Prayer Flags
I started this day falling off the deep end. Truth be told I started the past few weeks falling off the deep end but ya know what? I'm...
Mar 26, 2022


You Can't Rush Your Healing
I just lived the most present month of my entire life. No image to uphold or aesthetic to create, just being. The presence of it all is...
Mar 7, 2022


Magic Meets Magic
I should say that I took a leap of faith and a big chance on myself and booked a 1 way ticket to Costa Rica, I moved! (well, for a...
Feb 7, 2022


I Thought It'd Feel Different
How many times have you wanted something, maybe even earnestly manifested something, only to find out it isn't at all how you'd...
Jan 29, 2022


Pretty Words About Hard Things
Hi, I'm back with a poem because pretty words are the only way I've been able to release and accept the hard experiences that I am...
Jan 24, 2022


Feel To Heal
Healing isn't linear so we've all been told. I can accept that there isn't a tried and true process that will guarantee a smooth journey...
Jan 20, 2022


Homecoming
What's the most wyld realization you've had this week? I'll go first. I transitioned back to writing in a physical journal vs. my online...
Jan 13, 2022


Unbreakable
This post is an anthem for those who have been through it. This is especially for those who feel like everything breaks. It is without a...
Jan 10, 2022


I Found Beauty Today
"I have everything I need", I say to myself. The sunlight is reflecting off a clear, plastic grapefruit container and right into my eyes....
Jan 5, 2022


Building to the Jump
I'm at the precipice of a journey that has taken years to arrive at (literally years 🤡). The motivating factor of continuing to navigate...
Dec 19, 2021


Happiness and Pleasure
Summer, fall, winter, and spring... Growth, harvest, death, and rebirth We are in fall here in Austin, Texas. Personally, I love the fall...
Nov 24, 2021


The Space Between
Let's set a scene... Song: Innerlight by Elderbrook Location: The eastside of Austin, TX I'm walking back and forth between two dog...
Nov 8, 2021


I'm Feeling At Peace Right Now
Still on my Rufus Du Sol kick so here we go, "I Don't Wanna Leave" Head in the clouds I'm feeling at peace right now I don't want to come...
Oct 27, 2021


When This Is Over
If you know me then you know that walking the boardwalk near my apartment is my favorite past time: *meets a new friend* "Want to grab...
Oct 20, 2021


Maybe, All I Need Is Time
I spent my last morning with Lucas drinking coffee on the patio. I won't lie, it was bittersweet. Yet again, spending a week with Lucas...
Oct 17, 2021


Lessons At Lucas's House
The last time I was at Lucas's house my girlfriend had gotten on a flight without me, again. I vividly remember the depth of the grief I...
Oct 13, 2021


Can I Talk To You About Spiritual Bypassing?
Come, sit down with me on this lovely patio. We're having coffee and there is a crispy fall breeze in the air. The sun is shining and we...
Oct 10, 2021


Music = Healing
Ok, ok, ok. I don't have the right words to describe last weekend, honestly the last week of my life, but it's definitely something I'll...
Oct 7, 2021


Not Ready To Let You Go
I spent some time in my apartment today. I was there cleaning between short term stays and ended up having some free time so I meditated...
Oct 1, 2021


No High Vibes Required
Ever just need to write it out? The happiness, the anger, the sadness, the grief, the discomfort, the rejection... I'm a poem writer when...
Sep 24, 2021


Full Moon Bath + Self Compassion
Last night, September 20, 2021 was a Pisces full moon. Most full moons are pretty damn powerful for a empathic Cancer such as myself but...
Sep 22, 2021


Plur, But Make It Real
I think the idea behind PLUR is genuine but the reality is far less, like a lot of things in this life. Peace, Love, Unity, Respect...
Sep 19, 2021


What You Desire, Desires You
Surrender. The single word I wrote on my Instagram post today. I've been in a cycle of lack if we want to call it that. It's not really...
Sep 18, 2021

